The last few days have been a little strange in militia. My old CEO from when I was in militia has resubbed, and a large portion of our old corporation has been flying around together lately. I wish they would all join Minmatar militia, but their standings prevent it.
Last night a small gang of LateNighters were wandering around in various faction cruisers and bcs. Well, I was surprised for a minute or two when they said they were engaged on a station one jump away, and then called my old CEO primary.
But I can’t shoot him. It just feels weird…
Needless to say, by the time I reshipped and started making my way there, the engagement had already fizzled, so I didn’t have to make a choice. I kind of took my time though.
“You’re going to have to shoot them.” One of my corpmates noted afterwards. “If you’re going to be on this side, you’re going to have to kill our old corpmates.”
I then proceeded to tell him exactly who I would kill, which would consist of anyone I wanted to. ;) He then proceeded to argue with me, and we discussed what it would be like to drop militia altogether, blue the friends we had on either side, and just kill everyone else as pirates.
But there’s major problems with that idea. First, what if one group of friends starts killing the other? Then what? Just not engage? Also, access to missions is a must for some people to make their isk in our corp. And further more, there are some fights, that as a 5 man corp, we simply wouldn’t be able to take with gate guns.
And leaving our beloved corporation to rejoin the Amarr is not really an option to us.
So, what now?
To be honest, I really don’t know. I had other friends that I shot in the Amarr when I first joined Minmatar. One of them I had known since my old 0.0 days is barely speaking to me anymore. No matter how much you try to make things not personal and ‘just for fun,’ when you kill someone over and over again there’s bound to be some sort of real hostility born.
What should I do? I probably should just get over it and shoot them without hesitation. But, that probably won’t happen. At least not at first.
What will I do? Well, I won’t be playing Eve for a few days anyway due to RL stuff, so I guess in true Scarlett O’hara style “I won’t think about that today. I’ll think about it tomorrow.”