A common answer to my bitter vet mumblings and grumblings is that I should "just go get in a tech 1 frigate and have some fun."
I really hate it when people tell me this. You might as well tell me to go get some warp core stabs and find a button to orbit in order to gain feelings of enjoyment and happiness.
Now, tell it to a null-sec pilot who has been restrained to dealing with politics and capital warfare for the past few years, and you might be recommending something worthwhile. But, telling a girl who's been in Faction War for the past four years, to go 'take a break and fly a frigate' is a laughable proposition.
Furthermore, I'm not one of that crowd that buys into the whole 'solo frigate pvp' deal. My hands don't shake when I kill you with my elite Tristan of doom. And I do not get some sort of weird, egotistical rush by engaging in something that is essentially a super sneaky way of being extremely risk adverse.
I'm not saying that the cost of my ship is some sort of direct indication of the fun I will have. However, I have always had a problem being content with 'for the hell of it' pvp. I like fighting over something --protecting something, conquering something, or etc. Roaming around to randomly shoot someone who is also randomly roaming around can be tiresome.
Also, I don't understand the fascination with 'explosions.' Loving explosions. Making explosions. Gonna go make people explode. According to eve-kill I'm well past 7,500 explosions and I have to be honest --most of them have looked pretty much the same, and not all that exciting to boot. In fact, much of the time you don't see any sort of explosion of any kind. Nowadays, it's more of a gentle blinking on one's overview that indicates a target that has been turned into scrap. (Or cold flesh, depending.)
Now imagine you're shooting someone, and he's entering structure. Just a little more to go....a little more to go. And he explodes. Your ship rocks back slightly from the force of the nearby impact and your screen lights up with a beautifully grim flash of burning fuels and flying shards of metal. You listen in awe as the sirens that were once blaring in warning and confusion are snuffed out prematurely and you cringe as you see bodies --their faces still etched with frozen horror --pouring from melting, metal edifices.
You turn your ship away as flaming scraps rain down on you, and steer carefully through the smoking chaos.
Maybe then I would be excited about explosions. Maybe, the morbidness that lies within would agree that jumping into a frigate to 'go have some fun' *insert evil laugh* is a very good suggestion indeed.
But explosions (and frigates), like many other things in EVE, are more fun in people's minds then in reality, I think.
All this being said, I'm one to talk. Frigates aren't fun, so what have I been doing instead? Well, enjoying the exciting thrill of market trading of course.